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how does stress relate to virginity?

roti: Let me know if you are stressed. I will be your stressball.
dear: wow… are you sure?? I’m very naughty when I’m stressed.
roti: hahaha
dear: but don’t worry I won’t take your virginity
roti: erks
dear: lol
roti: yish2. like I want to give you my virginity. lol
dear: haha.. enough.. else later tonight I get horny
roti: self service then
dear: not best…
roti: or else what you want to do? soak in cold water? lol
dear: naughty you

Thankful

I was greedy.

At first I told myself I will be lonely for the rest of my life because I want people around me to be happy, yet not wasting a girl’s lifetime happiness.

Then I met him and started to imagine being his lover.

And when he rejected me, I fell apart was disappointed.

Then he explained to me, and I agreed to maintain our intimate yet non-lovers’ relationship.

I should be grateful. I expected I will be lonely for the rest of my life, but fate gave me him. I should not be greedy. It’s already more than what I was supposed to get and I should treasure it with thankfulness.

Thank you for letting me know you, Dear.

I will not be greedy and will not ask for more.

late

Omg I feel so bad, so terrible.

Dear asked me out for dinner. And I was late for 45 minutes!

I’m just hopelessly bad.

I don’t have a proper reason to explain my being late..

He detests people being late the most.

I feel I’m hated.

Sorries don’t work.

Please forgive me, Dear.

I gave him his happy ending

He explained to me today.

I think he’s scared of hurting himself and others, so he would rather to be a very close friend with me than be a lover. He said he will have to get married.

I started to understand all he wants is someone so close to him that he can call ‘dear’, that he can talk to on anything, that he can hug and that has a shoulder he can lean on, yet not a lover.

I think I understand and I agreed to be just like what we were in the past few days.

It is already hurting me for being rejected, then I have to be his closest friend, and use intimate and flirty words on each other yet not being his lover. That’s probably the most cruel thing for me, but I don’t know what makes me agree to him. Maybe it’s love. Maybe I love him so much that I’m willing to be cruel to myself to make him happy.

Love makes people blind.